What might have been
I've come up with a new saying--
Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
No, wait. That one's been done. Here we go--
Better to have loved and lost than to wonder what might have been.
That's it.
I met this woman a few weeks ago. (hey Christina-- though she doesn't know this blog exists so...) We went out a few times. We had fun. It was all going nicely. Then she finds out she got a job in Sydney. Starts immediately. And she's gone. So here I am, sitting in Brisbane, thinking "I really like her and I'd like to keep seeing her". I was not/am not in love with her (only knew her for about 2 weeks) but I'm aware of the possibilities. And the possibilities are annoying the hell out of me. If I'd met her two months earlier everything might have been different. At least that's enough time to make a decision. ie-- This relationship isn't worth the effort of moving/long distance crap. (Or, let's face it, it might have already been over). Or it is worth it. And if it's the latter you can do something about it. But a couple of weeks? Really can't stretch my romantic notions that far. (Even if I felt I could have she probably would have slapped me around for being an idiot.)
I actually found out last night that her new job will be taking her to India. Not sure for how long or anything. That doesn't really change the story, but anyway. (Or maybe it does. If I'd been willing to move to Sydney, would I have been willing to move to India. Hmmmm.)
So, here I am having one way conversations on my computer and Christina is in Sydney.
Oh well. Another day another... something.
Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
No, wait. That one's been done. Here we go--
Better to have loved and lost than to wonder what might have been.
That's it.
I met this woman a few weeks ago. (hey Christina-- though she doesn't know this blog exists so...) We went out a few times. We had fun. It was all going nicely. Then she finds out she got a job in Sydney. Starts immediately. And she's gone. So here I am, sitting in Brisbane, thinking "I really like her and I'd like to keep seeing her". I was not/am not in love with her (only knew her for about 2 weeks) but I'm aware of the possibilities. And the possibilities are annoying the hell out of me. If I'd met her two months earlier everything might have been different. At least that's enough time to make a decision. ie-- This relationship isn't worth the effort of moving/long distance crap. (Or, let's face it, it might have already been over). Or it is worth it. And if it's the latter you can do something about it. But a couple of weeks? Really can't stretch my romantic notions that far. (Even if I felt I could have she probably would have slapped me around for being an idiot.)
I actually found out last night that her new job will be taking her to India. Not sure for how long or anything. That doesn't really change the story, but anyway. (Or maybe it does. If I'd been willing to move to Sydney, would I have been willing to move to India. Hmmmm.)
So, here I am having one way conversations on my computer and Christina is in Sydney.
Oh well. Another day another... something.
1 Comments:
At 8:13 am,
Heather said…
I know you don't believe in this sort of thing, but this may give you food for thought, anyhows:
"Aries: Ask most people what's important to them and they will tell you one thing - and then do something entirely different. Everyone has done this at some point, and it's a kind of hypocrisy that you need to rise above once and for all. What matters in your life is what matters, and that's what you need to act on. Looked at another way, what you do is in fact what matters, and the rest is just talk. Therefore, if you really care about a certain situation quite close to home, you'll be the first one to make a move. You will make a difference."
If it matters enough for you to be posting it on your blog, then follow up. You don't have to go the whole hog, either. India's a nice place to visit, I'm told, even if you don't get the girl. If you couldn't actually be bothered, though, then there's your answer, right there. :-)
From the Queen of the Land of Coulda-Shoulda-Woulda And What If. Speaking as not only their Regent, but as head of the Tourist Bureau, lovely place to visit, but you don't want to live there. ;-)
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